Fear Not

Finding gratitude is sometimes hard to do every day but I am challenging myself going forward. As the old saying goes – Every day may not be good, but there is something good IN every day.

Today I woke a bit annoyed, I didn’t sleep well and sometimes the day ahead looks daunting. Not just during a pandemic but also dealing with being so much to two kids who realistically should NOT be needing me so much to help with daily life anymore.

One day I would really like to focus on me. Focus on what I WANT to do and focus on helping me become the best me I can be. I never make that time for me and that is completely my fault. At this point in my life I don’t even know what that would look like but I can dream. Maybe I would make a vision board, maybe I would write more, meditate or “get my life together” as I have been told to do. Having two kids with special needs does make this more difficult but no more excuses.

Gratitude – I will choose to be grateful for these difficult times that brought me to where I am today for without them I would not be forced to grow.

This afternoon I heard Eli singing along to the music and I was reminded of the gratitude that I am choosing to see on a daily basis. A smile came across my face and I was brought right to the truth of what matters. Living your best life despite your circumstances. Eli is a pure example of that!!

~ by Rebecca on January 6, 2021.

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